♥ Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 4:38 PM
Till you see you
Oh yes, I've made my mind. I'll be concentrating on school and studies. Nothing else except this(: I'm somehow happy that I've come ta this kind of decision. My best friend is the reason of all this and I know she's very worried and also angry. Just go with the flow babe. Girlfriend; what more could I ask from god. I have got you as my bestest friend in the universe. I really appreciate all your doing. I really feel relaxed with you around. I really love you, babe. Thus, this didn't shocked me at all. Believe me. I'm going fine. And Imma gonna take a chill pill. When it comes, it'll also go. I'm matured enough to comprehend all this. Imma take good care of myself. Time is all I ask from him but he since he can't. Too bad. But to me studies is my first priority ever. May we be best friend till my last breath, I wish. To whom it may concern. I know you're going to read this. What is it that you really want from me now? What other unanswered questions do you have in the corners of your mind? I just can't comprehend why can't you just tell me openly. The least I'll do is just ta ignore you. What more could I say or do, dude. Before the day this happen. Did you remember whatever shit you was saying to me? And the next day, what fcuking news. I can't believe how great you are at contradicting your own words. You clearly said that you're over and done with everything. It really isn't. Even if I were to accidentally tell the wrong things, my clique is smart enough to differentiate between the good and the bad. After doing so, then they will decide how they wish to treat you. Only I, you and my close ones know the kinds of mistakes you repeat over and over again. So let's not pursue this matter. It's funny how you text me, emphasizing the fact that [ I typed some stuffs here but on a second thought, I do not want to invite any unwanted misconceptions.] I did my best in trying to love you previously, they're all sincere. From the bottom of my heart. But I'm truly sorry it didn't work out eventually. And if you think that I'm cruel, then stop being bothered with me. There goes another contradiction. And please. Just please. Quit talking about karma to me. Stop saying all those shits. I tried to keep our friendship good, but you're ruining it boy. Yes, I may seem inhumane, considering what I just blogged. Pardon me, but I've got to be firm and stand by my individual rights. It shocked me that you call me yesterday. I really thank you for hearing all my nonsense. Thanks fo' consoling me. I can't believe that I actually teared on the fhone. I jolly well know what you want from me. My answer is still a 'no'. Anw, I think we should catch up, aite? It's been a hell long time not spending time with you. I do miss you. Lastly, I'm still that couch potato girl you used ta know(: Baby, I'll be fine.
