I'll bring you, Comfort

♥ Monday, August 11, 2008 @ 5:47 PM
a dozy voice penetrated my right ear


The path I'm going through is life is really unbearable. I've always try my best to be the best of all and hope whatever I'm doing turns out right. I'm now having ma prelims exams and it really freaks me out especially maths, fo' sure. But now I'm left only with a few more days then I'll be out from this dilemma. Back to the exams, simply all was ok except maths. And, I actually really enjoy doing science exam and I really hope it will during the N too. I'm scared to say its freaking easy(i don't wanna get bad result by saying such things) so its better to keep mum and just say paper is fine.


While doing my science my beloved one and only was there to entertain me while doing his exam. Even that's call cheating(following the rules) I still enjoy it. Every single moment at the hall with bunch of lovelies surround me during the prelims. I have been trying hard to concentrate on my studies but as usual, I simply can't get maself too. Until now, I'm still wondering whats the prob? I wanna wish all my beloved sweethearts 'All The Best' for your prelims results. I'm sure my 4T1 will be doing great. And, it really touches me wen I got to know that my this lazy bums sweethearts actually went ta study. I'm so elated. And, I'm proud of you guys, simply.

My baby juliet is two steps ahead me. Now if I'm not mistaken she's now having a date with this particular guy. This really shows she has move on despite of all those distractions on friendster. I told' ya. You can do it. And, I never fail to assure you I'm by your side every seconds and minutes. But still, you do still think about your past. I know that. I just hope may my baby juliet get the most happiness of all as I'm sure she deserve it. May Allah bless you.

I realise I'm getting closer and closer to you day by day. We're just like we used to be. Don't cha think so? But then if I were to think about what you did months ago to me. I realise that I'll actually try to move away from you again. You can't blame me to be very secretive about whats going on with my life. Basically, I have lost trust in you and it maybe really hard for me trust you again even tho' you're are one of my family member. Just fo' once, be thankful that I'm not like "those" kind of girls. And, I can confidently say that, whatever you do will never pleased me at this moment of time, really NOTHING at all. But, I'm sure I'll talk to you like how I always do.

You always mean so much to me till now. No doubt babydear, I still love you like I always do. The conversation is really special to me. Including You. You make me feel the goosebumps I felt the first time. You still hold a place in my heart. No matter what vulgarities I say to you, you know I have never mean it. The reason of me saying all those nasty stuff just to make you feel that you aren't important in my life anymore. Every time we put down the phone, I'd closed eyes and say "I'm sorry love, I really didn't mean to say all those nasty words to you, infact you don't deserve it all, I'm really sorry". After that, I'go to sleep. Believe me I really do all that. Because I know you really hate it whenever I say all those vulgarities to you but I still say it. No matter how much I make you angry, sad or jealous. I still love you no matter what. You are my strength. I'm so happy to be able to do my exam with you. Eventho' you're lil far, I still can see what you're doing. I stole some glances of you when you are not aware of it. I hope that I still have the right to call you my babyboo. Like you've always "you've always been my baby". And, I'll be and I hope forever. I really miss those days of how many sacrifice you'd make just ta spend time with me and you actually did that a few hours ago. It's not only sweet. It really touches me so much that I wanna teared and tell you how much you mean to me and how I wish to go back like those days. I know you too wish all that. But then, let's just see whats destiny has install for us. Maybe a LATER-ON-HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER?

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE!