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♥ Thursday, May 8, 2008 @ 3:38 PM

life turning upside down

im simply tired pretending ntg has happen. i cant let it out even i want too. it keep hunting and hunting me. i really wish ta tell this someone everything. but wat if i say smth that make hurt this someone hurt more. i think thousand times before saying anything ta this someone. im really feeling not comfortable like this. its like, it never happen and which i never thought wld happen once in my life but wat people say we cant predict the tmr and u cant expect watever u think will always be like that. this is wart "life lyrical" is. im seriously feeling shitty here. i really need some fresh air. i feel damn suffocated. i keep asking myself went will this end. must i make the first move jst because ure elder than me. its like so unfair. im jst keeping quiet as i dnt want things ta go all WRONG! both of us are giving each other a cold shoulder and we both noe that. i jst dnt noe wen will this end. like yesterday, i make it good, i make it right, i make it normal but in the end wats the outcome. more worse than i ever thought so i guess its really the best if i were ta shut myself up and do my own things. maybe by passing all my subjects will make some changes in us. least, we will talk. hais. the day ive been waiting is drawing nearer but have you least care? i wana buy a for present you but will you appreciate it. but hell, my heart says just buy for you. at least i did my part. i would pray that u'll do your part by excepting my gift. )':

mother tougue paper was sucha easy feat that i managed ta finish it within fifteen minutes like that and wen i finish doing it. i saw eva has also finish her mother tougue paper. i even have time ta have a nice nap. i just took a few minutes ta be soundly asleep. heehs. wen i woke up i saw dali was looking at me. ohh~ i wonder how bad i was looking. once i woke up and i keep thinking of babyboy. i dnt know why. i really wish that he would be beside me right now. after ma mother tougue paper, without any break we need ta start our CPA PRACTICAL. it goes the same w mother tougue sucha easy feat. i was the one ta finish first. four printed papers and im done. i even thought of going online while waiting for others but of course i wont dare. NO! there was sucha a chaos after the invigilator collect our paper. hahs! i just keep looking at my classmates the way they ask my other classmates about the chart thingy. ooh well~ tmr is my last paper and that is my EOA PRACTICAL. i just need ta remember the format of every letter. i hope its gonna be an easy paper too. i need ta report ta school at 9.45am. hows that? i guess i can have a nice sleep tanite as i dnt need ta wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning. all the best classmates (:

i miss my babyboy alot. baby, beep up me soon, aye. grrrr!